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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 22:53:07 GMT -5
"There's a possibility that he doesn't know what he needs," Kane pointed out gently. "As for the baggage, I was talking about yours, not his. When you see that look, do you still think of it as Dare at all?"
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:05:16 GMT -5
"I know it was her," Michael said. "I was afraid for so long that I would say just one wrong thing and he would leave me, but I got over that. I had put that behind me, I hadn't even thought about Ivy until he mentioned it when he left. I mean...of course I see it in my head as Dare's face, because it was Dare's face." But it wasn't Dare.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:09:11 GMT -5
"It sounds like he hasn't stopped thinking about it, if he mentioned it recently," Kane observed. "It must have been a traumatic experience. Did he see anyone about it afterward?" Dare certainly hadn't seen him about it.
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:16:04 GMT -5
"No, if I have everything right in my head's timeline then that's what started his weight loss, though," Michael said. "He stopped eating well. They told him to go to the hospital right after we found him but he came home instead, that was when we were still in Diagon Alley." It had just been a huge nightmare.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:17:12 GMT -5
"Why did he refuse to go to the hospital?" Kane asked. "Do you know?"
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:22:37 GMT -5
"He just wanted to come home, and I wanted the same thing. He'd taken care of me before and I knew I could take care of him. I gave him a bath and got him to sleep, he was so weak..." It was painful to remember, and Michael didn't remember it very often.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:23:53 GMT -5
"So why were you afraid of him leaving?" Kane asked.
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:35:23 GMT -5
"Because I can't be without him. He's the only person I've had that stayed there without pushing, without trying to change me. Kane, that man means the world to me and if I lost him...and I'm losing him right now and I don't know what to do." Michael was looking at Kane then, then bridge of his nose burning.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:38:35 GMT -5
Kane spent a minute or two calming Michael down before returning to the subject. "I don't understand why you thought he would leave you after you brought him home," he said. "Could you try explaining that to me?"
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:44:14 GMT -5
"I don't know, it was just this stupid irrational fear I had for much too long," Michael said. "It drove him mad but I couldn't shake the feeling. It took me until...I don't know when it was, but it was after we both started working here. I talked to Emilian and it just, I don't know, clicked." Then he had known Dare wouldn't leave him.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:46:48 GMT -5
"So you had been married for over a year before you stopped worrying that he'd leave you. Did that fear come from the incident with Ivy? Did Dare know about the fear?"
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 14, 2012 23:51:54 GMT -5
"It was always there," Michael said. "Always. It was like...I knew he wouldn't, but there was this evil little voice in the back of my head that just said what if all the time. He knew. And he knew when I finally managed to get over it." Neither of them had understood it but he thought they both had moved past it.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 14, 2012 23:57:20 GMT -5
"Do you have any remaining trust issues?" Kane asked. "Does Dare?"
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Post by Michael Blackwood-Hardt on May 15, 2012 0:12:22 GMT -5
"I don't, well I didn't, maybe? I feel guilty for the twins. I hate feeling that way, because I love them so much. But I know I pushed Dare and it seems sometimes like he's pulling away ever since...I should never have wanted them." Oh how he hated that feeling. It drilled into his chest and made his heart ache.
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Post by Kane Garrett on May 15, 2012 8:37:57 GMT -5
"Tell me more about this," Kane asked. "You said that you pushed Dare, and you've used that word a lot. Is it the pushing you feel guilty for? Maybe because you've said Dare doesn't push? Do you know how Dare feels about the twins?"
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