Daydream

[Druscilla Grace]

Dru grinned and couldn't hold in a light giggle, "No," she said, shaking her head. "Some people are conservative and wait until married, some are really loose like, a couple of people I know, and then some are in the middle." She had always considered herself very conservative in that respect, until she had met Chase. With the thought of him she couldn't keep the grin off her face or the sparkle from her eyes.

[Adara Snow]

Adara's eyes brightened at the happiness she saw on Dru's face. "So it is good?" she asked, relieved. Even with nobody here to punish her, she could still feel it and the fear it brought. "If it is good, then it should be done, shouldn't it?" She was having a great deal of trouble processing how something good could have been hidden, and how it could be forced. Of course, she was having the most trouble trying to picture all the pieces and how they fit together, despite Dru's description.

[Druscilla Grace]

"It should be done, yes," Dru said, carefully thinking about each word. "But not just with anyone, I think you should be close to that person, feel comfortable with them, connect. If someone I had never met came up to me and tried to do it, I wouldn't let them, and if they forced me to....it would be horrible."

[Adara Snow]

Adara nodded solemnly. She trusted her friends implicitly, but she could not see a time or situation where she would ever be able to move past her upbringing to do those things, even if they themselves were good. "You have given me a great deal to think about," Adara said. "I thank you for that." She brought her eyes to Dru's, worry tempered by the gratitude she felt. "Can I call you friend?" she asked. After everything that they had just discussed, Adara sincerely hoped so.

[Druscilla Grace]

"Of course you can," Dru said, smiling. The smile from earlier had come back and seemed as though it were back for good this time. "Just do me a favor and be careful around Emilian, alright?" If Adara would agree to that little thing, then Dru would feel as though she had accomplished something.

[Adara Snow]

Adara nodded, fully intending at that moment to do as Dru asked. "I promise to try," she said. Adara only hoped that she would have the time to think about everything Dru had told her, and everything she'd learned before she saw Emilian again. She still could not believe that he had done such things, and did not want to stop seeing him as somewhat of a romantic figure.

[Druscilla Grace]

Dru sighed, "Thank you." She wondered if she should go and talk to Michael about this, or perhaps even Emilian. Hopefully everything she had said had some impact on Adara and would make her be a little more careful, though the idea of Adara and Emilian meeting up worried Dru.

[Adara Snow]

Adara smiled brightly at Dru's thank-you, which to Adara amounted to praise for proper behavior. Her hands, resting lightly against the cover of her journal, smoothed against it a moment before she was aware of the motion. It reminded her of the reason that Dru had first come to sit with her, and Adara, full to bursting with new information, was ready for the ease of their previous conversation. "Would you tell me more about your writing?" she asked. "Do you share your stories?" She had hidden her own so long that the idea of others seeing them seemed unreal.

[Druscilla Grace]

"With anyone that wants to read them," Dru said. There had been plenty of people read her stories. "At first I was always scared they were just being nice when they said they liked them, then I finally accepted that they were telling the truth." It had taken her quite a while to accept the truth of their words. "Am I to assume you don't?"

[Adara Snow]

Adara's fingers suddenly clenched against the edge of her journal, pulling it close. She shook her head as she looked away from Dru. "It was discouraged," she said, the words softly spoken, but filled with meaning. "They are terrible, anyway, garbage, abfall." But they had always made her feel free, no matter the circumstances.

[Druscilla Grace]

Dru tilted her head at Adara's reaction. She bit her lip, wondering how it was possible for someone to tell their daughter to not do something she obviously enjoyed doing. "But don't you enjoy writing?"

[Adara Snow]

"Oh, yes," Adara said, eyes widening slightly with her declaration. "I love to write, words cannot express..." She caught herself and bit her lip to keep from going on, from allowing herself to dominate the conversation. Adara breathed in, letting the cool autumn air calm her. "It is a hobby, and one which I enjoy," she finished, the words true, but an understatement.

[Druscilla Grace]

"Then why call them terrible?" At times Dru had outwardly said her writing was bad, but it was because she didn't think anyone else would like her work, that it wouldn't be up to standards, inside she had always loved it. Once she had been able to accept her friends' words, she was able to love her own writing, but it had taken a while, and she no longer called them terrible or not worth reading.

[Adara Snow]

"Because that is what I have been told," Adara replied. She glanced down at her journal, then guiltily up at the lake. "Sometimes my tutors would find them, and sometimes my father knew, but I could not make myself stop writing, even when I knew that I should." The punishment had been worth it at those times, though Adara could not understand her own reasoning.

[Druscilla Grace]

"How could you live like that?" Dru asked, looking at her with a strange expression, something between confusion and something resembling pity. "I think I would have gone insane."