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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 4, 2009 23:54:35 GMT -5
Dare's brows lowered, and his eyes narrowed dangerously. "I'm not you," he said, the words nearly a growl. "I'm not going to push him as hard as I can to make him do things he doesn't want to. I'm not going to belittle him for doing things differently. Just because you can't trust--just because you can't be trusted--doesn't mean no one can." Dare snatched up his coat almost violently.
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 0:00:26 GMT -5
"You're going to hurt him!" Emilian said, glaring up at Dare for a moment before he was forced to look away. "You're in this...whirlwind and in a year you're going to be tired of it and he won't be." He clenched his jaw again, despite the pain and shifted again to try to relieve some of the lingering pain from Dare. He hated showing what he was, but he couldn't stop himself from saying it, he felt like it needed to be said.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 0:05:54 GMT -5
Dare's voice lowered again, and it softened a bit this time. He almost pitied Emilian at that moment. "I love Michael, for a thousand reasons I don't need to explain to you and a thousand more you don't even know about. I would die for Michael before I'd hurt him. If I lost him I wouldn't want anyone else. Just him. I don't care if you can't understand it, but yes, it can happen and it did happen. Michael's not stupid and he can take care of himself. If you can't trust me, trust him."
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 0:14:07 GMT -5
Emilian forced himself up, shaking his head and wincing as he stood stiffly. "You're saying that now, what about in a year? Or when you find out one of his dark little secrets? You know a lot about him, but you don't know everything," he said, shaking his head still, hair falling around his face. "Tell me all that again in a year." He put his hand on the arm of the couch.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 0:21:30 GMT -5
Dare nearly rolled his eyes at that. "I know more than you think," he said. "I know how he used spells I can hardly think about, I know how he got where he is, and I know you in part f~ed with his mind so much it was torture for him breaking through the walls he's gotten through and he may never be done. I know. You can keep your high-and-mighty you don't know him like I do, Emilian. Has it ever occurred to you that I might know something you don't?"
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 0:29:50 GMT -5
"I didn't do anything to him!" Emilian said in disbelief. How could Dare accuse him of doing something like that to Michael? "Why would I do anything to him that would do something like that?" He forced himself to stand up straight and look back at Dare. He had done nothing to Michael's mind, and Dare couldn't tell him that he had.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 0:36:35 GMT -5
"You didn't even have to try," Dare said harshly. "Think about it; who did he ever have as a role model, who ever talked to him about sex? Not Soren f~ing Hardt. Your stories alone were enough to cement every time he'd ever been told it wasn't an appropriate topic of conversation. Sex isn't everything Emilian, despite what you might think, but it can sure as hell screw with someone when all they know is it's wrong, it's misery, it's addictive."
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 0:45:25 GMT -5
Emilian stopped at that and shook his head yet again. "I never said anything about it being wrong or misery," he said, though he couldn't argue its addictive side. "Besides, if those pictures have anything to say about it, Michael certainly has no problems. According to you two, you've been having sex since before I even left!" If that were the truth, then how could there be a problem?
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 0:52:49 GMT -5
One thing at a time, Dare told himself. "Soren told him it was wrong. You told him at the age of twelve about a bitch named Carolynn, and he listened to you, and he filed that away with everything else. The pictures were taken after all the work Michael's done to get past everything, and we only told you we were having sex so you'd stop tormenting Michael about being a virgin! He didn't think it was funny!" Dare would not tell Emilian what kind of work Michael had done, or with whom. But Emilian needed to know that there was far more to what was between them than what he'd seen, even considering the pictures.
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 1:05:25 GMT -5
It took a few moments for all of that to sink in. He stared at Dare, trying to make sense of it even after it had sunk in. He didn't like hearing it, certainly it wasn't true. Surely Dare was looking for answers for something that was wrong with Michael's mind. "I didn't do anything to Michael!" he insisted, looking at Dare as though if he stared long enough Dare would agree with him.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 1:16:04 GMT -5
Dare's eyes narrowed. "I don't believe you meant to, but Michael's not the same as you. There were a lot of things he never saw the same as you did. Did you ever wonder why he got so pissed when you bugged him about sh~ like that? Did you ever wonder why no matter how much you tried to get him to join in he refused? It was a hell of a lot worse than you could ever imagine."
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 1:23:32 GMT -5
I thought he just didn't like me, Emilian thought to himself. Maybe he had just thought Michael was a prude, too stuck up to do anything. How could it have happened? Was Michael really as bad off as Dare said? "It doesn't make any sense," he said, mostly to himself, looking away from Dare at some spot in front of him.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 1:28:40 GMT -5
"Not to you," Dare said, "and for the longest time I didn't either--Michael didn't even know what was wrong. But we figured it out. He figured it out. He's still figuring it out." Dare didn't think there was anything he could say to make someone like Emilian understand being uncomfortable in their own skin, and again, that was none of his business. Knowing Michael had trouble was going to have to be enough.
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Post by Emilian Sota on Jan 5, 2009 1:36:56 GMT -5
Emilian shook his head yet again. He refused to believe that he had done anything to cause such lasting damage to Michael. He couldn't believe it, how could he? One of the people that was such a large part of his life was suffering, and it was his fault, if what Dare told him was true. He fell back into the couch, letting himself fall into the cushions and putting his elbow on the arm of the chair and resting his chin lightly on his hand.
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Post by Dare Blackwood-Hardt on Jan 5, 2009 1:47:51 GMT -5
Dare tossed his coat over the back of the chair he was standing by, then perched on the arm, looking at Emilian. "You can stop hating yourself for it now," he said. "Michael doesn't blame you. Everything he gets past is a battle, but it's a victory. He's happy now. I didn't tell you to guilt trip you, I told you because..." Dare paused, trying to find his words. "Yeah, there's things I don't know about Michael. There's things you don't know and you've known him all your life. It takes forever to know someone... I want forever with him. I haven't gone through all this with him to get bored after a year. Are you getting any of this?" He wondered if Emilian was even listening anymore.
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