Needs (Adara and Emilian)

[Emilian Sota]

While not exactly surprised by her reaction, Emilian was surprised by how extreme it felt. "Adara?" He thought back on what he had said, he understood that she may have been down because he wasn't willing to get married at the moment, but what on earth had made her react like that? He didn't realize that she had taken it to mean that he would never consider it, because he would, it was just too soon. "Talk to me."

[Adara Snow]

Adara bit her lip, shook her head a moment, silently declaring that she could not speak, for the moment at least. But she sorted her thoughts, and formed her words. "There is nothing more to say, Emilian." He had made his decision, and there was no use in trying to sway him. She would only end in pushing him farther away, and she could not allow that to occur.

[Emilian Sota]

Emilian wished he knew what she was thinking, he felt like he was missing some important detail, but he didn't know what it was. He bit the inside of his cheek and looked away, sighing heavily through his nose. "Alright, I won't push," he said, shaking his head. Maybe he wasn't supposed to be with Adara, everything seemed to go wrong, whatever he did, it turned out wrong.

[Adara Snow]

Adara looked at Emilian helplessly, wondering at his thoughts. He had told her, there was no pretense between them, so why did he look so unsatisfied? Why did he not seem pleased that she had let the matter go? "I have displeased you," she said, unsure how and unable to let it go. She did not want to leave him now, was afraid that if she did, he would not welcome her back because she had asked too much.

[Emilian Sota]

"Damn it, Adara," Emilian said, softly, mostly to let out some of the frustration. "I'm trying my best to work this out, then I say that I'm not ready to get married and you freeze up?" He released one of her hands and ran his hand through his hair, "I mean, I can understand that you could be sad or whatever, but...." he trailed off and looked back at her, in his opinion she had overreacted.

[Adara Snow]

Ready? Adara's heart swelled, that grain of hope nearly making her dizzy. "Then...some day," she managed, her dark eyes glistening, everything within her balancing between joy and despair. She did not trust herself to say more, to clarify that she was speaking of herself, but the question was in her eyes. Might you consider me? Some day?

[Emilian Sota]

"There's always some day," Emilian said, searching her eyes. "So, are you alright now?" It was exhausting being with Adara, the stress that everything had caused was almost too much for him. But then they were together and he remembered why he was willing to put up with it, to work through it.

[Adara Snow]

Adara only fought the well of emotions threatening to drown her long enough to nod. Then, her arms were around Emilain's neck, and her lips were on his, seeking the truth behind the words, seeking to distract herself enough to cope, enough to not simply cry until her soul gave. It was such a small thing, that possibility that he had given her, it was so very uncertain, but it was enough. It was more than she'd expected.

[Emilian Sota]

Emilian was caught off-guard by the sudden kiss, but he wasn't going to argue with it. He wrapped his arms around her waist, steadying himself from the weight as he returned her kiss with as much enthusiasm as he could, considering the confusion he was feeling because of her sudden mood changes over the past few minutes.

[Adara Snow]

If there was an answer in his kiss, it was only that he accepted what was between them, something Adara herself had struggled with. So many new elements had been introduced to their relationship that it was impossible to absorb them. But she could accept them. He could accept them. Adara kissed Emilian until the desperation faded, until the physical outpouring had calmed the emotional.

[Emilian Sota]

Emilian broke the kiss, breathing deeply, and looked into her eyes. He hoped that they would be good for a while, that he wouldn't screw anything else up any time soon. He kissed her again, holding her tightly to him, before breaking it again. "No more talk about it, please?" He did not want to talk about it, such a delicate subject apparently, it would be so much easier to just avoid it all together.

[Adara Snow]

Adara looked up at Emilian from beneath her lashes, her lip finding its way between her teeth, and shook her head, slowly but purposefully. She had as many answers as she could handle right now. She was exhausted, and suddenly unsure whether she was upright of her own strength, or because of Emilian's arms around her. She decided that it didn't matter, and brought her lips to his again, letting the matter be closed, letting it be forgotten for the time being.

[Emilian Sota]

It was enough for Emilian, and he let himself be taken fully into the kiss, let the emotions take over. He truly loved being with Adara, when they were good, even when they weren't, however exhausting it could be. He was still uncertain why it was such a big deal for her, but he was content to let it go.

[Adara Snow]

Adara's mind had cleared of all worry, all thought save those of now. She wanted relief again, wanted the easy oblivion Emilian had taught her so well. She broke the kiss, but only with intent shining in her dark eyes. "Take me to your bed, Emilian," she said, the words nearly a purr in their soft plea.

[Emilian Sota]

Emilian couldn't repress the low groan that came from his lips as he pulled her with him.

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