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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 1, 2008 9:42:10 GMT -5
"It is, but what I meant was, that you don't have to write a letter to get advice." Gabby said softly, turning her words from an answer into an offer. Gabby let the thought drift between them. Then turned to do a few more lengths of the pool. Hogwarts food and no excercise were starting to slacken her taut stomach and Gabby wanted to stay in shape.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 1, 2008 15:08:43 GMT -5
Dru turned to look at Gabby and then sat down against the wall. She pulled her knees up under her chin and watched the girl. Her eyes burned as she remembered the letter that had been in the paper. At the first reading there had been an uncomfortable feeling of recognition that she refused to pay attention to. She pushed the thought away and opened her mouth to speak when Gabby came back towards her on one of the laps. "I'm just not so sure about the relationship anymore," she said softly, her eyes blank and her voice breaking slightly.
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 1, 2008 15:32:47 GMT -5
When Dru had spoken, Gabby stopped swimming to watch Dru. Gabby took in her expression and tone of voice. "Is there something that is making you feel unsure about the relationship, or do you think it is just a natural rift that has occurred over time?" Gabby asked gently.
She was treading softly as she didn't want to anger Dru or giver her cause to clam up. Gabby felt that Dru just needed someone to talk to sometimes. "Maybe your relationship has naturally come to an end. But I can't tell you that, it's up to you." Gabby said.
Relationships were a bit of a raw spot for her at the moment as well considering all the trouble she was having with Ryan and Vannah and everyone else.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 1, 2008 17:04:52 GMT -5
Dru looked away from Gabby, chewing her lip. She didn't want the relationship to be over, she had gotten so used to the constant in her life that she couldn't imagine life without him. "We've been together since August, he's cheated on me once, I forgave him....I really care about him, I just don't know if he feels as much for me as I do for him." Since then she hadn't really had much chance to talk about the relationship, everyone was either against it completely or wanted him for their own.
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 9:58:42 GMT -5
"Do you know what?" Gabby said, "This sounds like my relationship with Ryan. Ryan's cheated on me once, and I really love him. But I'm just not sure if maybe his heart belongs to someone else, although I know I have a part of it." Gabby had never deeply thought about her relationship with Ryan recently, not since her accident and she didn't want to even though she knew that maybe being with Ryan wasn't the best thing for her.
Gabby climbed out of the pool gracefully, water dripping off her onto the floor. She shivered, shut her eyes and asked the room for a towel. When she opned her eyes she saw one in a neat pile by her feet. She picked it up and wrapped herself in it to get dry and warm. she squeezed the water out her hair and quickly braided it then tucked it up so it was out the way.
Turning to Dru she tried to gauge her mood. "I might not be the best person for advice then," Gabby said ruefully, "As I seem to be in the same situation as you, and for the moment, I'm clinging on to mine." She sighed, love always had to be so complicated. "Although I think I know deep down that I will end up with my heart in pieces and most of my friends would be screaming at me because I forgave him when he cheated and I took him back. But it's not as easy as that is it?" Gabby asked Dru. She now felt that they were very similar and could probably find comfort in each other's company. Gabby hoped a new friendship had been born.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 2, 2008 15:53:54 GMT -5
"I hope that he'll feel the same for me. I love being with him, his touch, his kiss, when we-" she stopped, looking away. There was another reason she couldn't bring herself to break up with him. A special connection that could only be between Dru and the one that had been her first. But then, did he feel the same connection? Or was she just another girl in his bed? She sighed, "I don't know."
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 16:09:13 GMT -5
"Sometimes, I think that I love Ryan so much that my heart will burst. I got together with Ryan after my grandmother had died, in my first few days at school. He's so much older than me that I felt safe, protected and special. When I'm with him..." Gabby couldn't continue a lump had formed in her throat at the same time the thought of losing him had entered her mind.
~It would just hurt so much~ She thought, if they ever split up. Tears welled in Gabby's eyes. She turned away. She imagined a warm fire with a soft rtug before it and it appeared. Gabby settled on the rug. Letting her hair come loose to dry, it curling round her shoulders. She wiped away her tears and looked towards Dru. "I just don't know what to do Dru, you're all so much older than me" Gabby nearly whispered these words, not trusting her voice.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 2, 2008 16:20:39 GMT -5
"If you met him right after your grandmother died, you say you love him, are you sure?" Dru asked, preparing to bring up an argument that she had had to get over. "I mean, after that kind of trauma, how do you know that you didn't just go to Ryan to help cope, that it's all real? The first time I met Chase, I went along with him because I wanted to forget my ex, wanted to move on from all the emotional crap I'd been going through." She wondered if the younger girl had any idea what Dru meant.
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 16:25:57 GMT -5
Gabby gave a rueful smile. "Emotional crap features quite heavily in my life too." Gabby thought about what Dru had said and wondered if it was true. "I don't think I was just using him." Gabby thought back on their time together it was all so vivid. "At first, I think it was a relief to forget about everything and just focus on all the new feelings. Then I got over my grandmother's death. She's still with me, I just can't see her or talk to her and get an answer." Gabby knew that sounded odd, but it was how she felt. "I do love Ryan, what I feel for him is real and also very painful. I have no control over my heart and I'm pretty sure that's not a good thing. I know I don't have all of his." She sighed, it was all so complicated. For no reason Gabby's scars twinged and the pain appeared in her face as she was caught unawares.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 2, 2008 16:33:22 GMT -5
"I think that Ryan's one of those people that's not really sure what he wants." Dru looked down at her fingers, picking at the nails as a way to focus. "I'm not going to say that I love Chase, it would be a lie. Love is too strong to use. I guess I'm still hoping though." She couldn't help but hold on, then she let out a tired laugh, "I guess that's kind of stupid. Been with him since August, still can't say I love him, still want to be with him."
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 16:36:39 GMT -5
Gabby laughed too as she felt all her body relax and her mind ease. "I'm glad I can talk like this with someone Dru." She said softly. "It sure is nice to have a proper conversation without wands being pointed and spells flying. Those kinds of conversations often turn ugly." Gabby said unconciously loosening her grip on the towel so it slid down revealing her scars fanning out along her collar bones on each side.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 2, 2008 16:43:48 GMT -5
Dru wiped tears from her eyes that she hadn't even realized had been there. "I've not had anyone to talk to. I feel weird talking to him about it, so I've not brought it up." Was she not allowed to be in a good mood? To have a good day? It had been so long since she had had a good day. A truly good day, where nothing went wrong, where she could relax and really enjoy herself.
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 16:47:16 GMT -5
"I think we both just need some time out. Life has become crazy and we need time to unwind." Gabby felt that she was talking about both of them. "Maybe we should meet up once a week or something. We know each other's stories so we have a chance to also just forget things for an hour or two and just have fun. We should have a chance to be teenagers." Gabby said this as she stood up. Keeping her towel wrapped around her she waved her wand briefly. Underneath her towel she was now wearing comfy jeans and a soft, baggy top she used for lounging around. She dropped her towel and let the room swallow it up.
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Post by Druscilla Grace on Apr 2, 2008 16:53:10 GMT -5
"Come down to the club sometime, have some fun." She stood and pulled on her robe, she liked the bathing suit and figured that the room wouldn't mind if she kept it. "I'm going to head up to the dorm, I'm exhausted." To Dru, a nice long night's rest sounded like a blessing from heaven.
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Post by Gabby Brocklehurst on Apr 2, 2008 17:02:28 GMT -5
"That sounds great," Gabby said with a smile, "I'll be sure to stop by sometime, and your always welcome at the cafe for a coffee or something, on the house. I never seem to charge people money," Gabby thought out loud. She moved towards the door and paused, "Well it was great talking to you but I think I might go and find an armchair in front of my common room fire." She said. Giving Dru a friendly smile, Gabby opened the door and wandered off down the corridor, meandering down to her common room to find that armchair.
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